But, is it nothing to know when you are dying, when you are about to take leave of this world, of its joys and sorrows, when the past of your life is unfurled before you, when eternity opens wide its portals, is it nothing to know at that last awful,supreme moment of your lives, that you have not lived in vain, that you have lived for the benefit of others, that you have lived to help in the cause of your country's regeneration?

-Surendranath Banerjea

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Hello World

It's been a really long time since i visited my space. I had given up hopes on jotting down anything at all. I found in my earlier posts, a spur of immaturity. I found them nothing more than a play of words, a showcase of vocab. My words did have the honesty that revealed my ignorance of the world. Somewhere along the bubble burst. I had to answer the knock of reality. I started growing. Got a job. Got out of home and lived on my own. Got married. Tried to fight certain conventions, but fell down exhausted. Gave up to the age old nose poking tradition of the society. I became a wife, a happy one at it. And i was nothing but that. After running for 7 months, i realized that i had forgotten things which were once my passion and obsession. I stopped singing or listening. I stopped reading or writing. I stopped trying new things at the kitchen {other than the 3 meals a day}. I became a pathetic person but a happy one at it. "Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window
Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you and the roses"

And here i am. Decidedly to resume scribbling/ranting/puking.

#Yet another insignificant inconsequential post. But as always, content. 

Khuda Hafiz


rameez said...
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rameez said...

Melcow back.

Your first posts should be no reason to feel insecure about.
I think this is completely natural. I've been secretly deleting old cringe-worthy entries of mine all the time.
Like I famously said once, "Your old posts are the bastard kids you don't want to claim ownership of, because they look ugly."
(Make this quote famous now, pretty please.)

Funnily, you will reflect on THIS post after a year and will decide its embarrassing.

Its actually good because you see them and you feel you've grown as a person, your perspectives, views and opinions have matured over the time, blah blabla.

Anyways I guess its easy for me to say as it doesn't matter much for me since my page basks in all obscurity it can get, but yours is under constant watch from your followers. :P