But, is it nothing to know when you are dying, when you are about to take leave of this world, of its joys and sorrows, when the past of your life is unfurled before you, when eternity opens wide its portals, is it nothing to know at that last awful,supreme moment of your lives, that you have not lived in vain, that you have lived for the benefit of others, that you have lived to help in the cause of your country's regeneration?

-Surendranath Banerjea

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Amour..

But for you,
I would never have felt love.
If not for you,
I would never have endured rejection.
You drove me to the zenith,
and then plunged me into the abyss.

You were the tenor of my life..
The nub n pith of my existence..
And when you were gone,
it was not just you,
but my demure self,
my love n affection,
that left me.
Never did i ever know,
I could love someone so much..

It's not my smile,
but my facade that you see,
for you read the curve in my lips,
and not the tears in the squinted eyes..
Perhaps,I never showed,
in the fear of pricking you,
hurting you.

What you left in me,
was nothing but a black hole..
and i kept on digging myself into it,
in search of you,.
in search of my lost self..

I'm shuddered,
out of my reverie.
And all that is left with me,
is the shards of my dreams,
my hopes and euphoria..

Days passed..
Months passed..
Never did i find a day,
without your thoughts..
Never did i sleep a wink,
without you peeping in my dreams..
I was set to miss you a great deal,
but i miss you more than that,
for it's not just you,
but my self that i lost.

Never did i love and adore someone so much..
Never did i respect and admire someone so much..

Neither your absence,
nor your silence,
would bring me back my senses,
for,they are lost..
Lost forever..

Never did i love someone so much..
Never will i ever..

Disclaimer:This is nothing but crazy musings and is not bound to interrogation..!!


Khuda Hafiz
~Gayathri~

3 comments:

not a blogger yet said...

don't expect any one to comment for this SCRIBBLING of yours.

Durga Nandan said...
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gayathri said...

your boifrnd..!lol..dont even dare dreaming of sneaking around with him..[:P]